im not. The reason i can give you advice is down to my own issues. It all started when 3. I woke one noght with the heavy breathing of my uncle. I asked him whats was going on and he said he was having a bda dream and his bum was itching. I wont go into details but he allowed me to scratch his anus with my willy as my finbger wasnt long enough. From that day I questioned my sexuality. I thouroughly enjoyed that moment with my uncle and when he died from chronic anal cancer I knew my wang had to the ability to take life and give life. This started me on my sexual journey through life. When I was 5 my mother bought a cat, I did not like the cat so i decided to get some butter on that cat and I shagged it to death. My mum was unsure abput what had happened as the butter led her to believe the cat has overindulged on butter which led to it untimely death. At the age of 11 my cock was in over drive, I shagged cathy and jane. The moment the hamsters died my mum knew what was going on as my sperm was recognised by the coroner. I was taken to a group thrapy session where people with the same condition all talk about there problems. After 6 months I was removed from the group as I was the only one left. This has left a hole iterally in me and metaphorically in my life.